38: Autism, Aphantasia, and this Youtube/Podcast thing

This podcast cost me quite a few nerves and hours. Things just didn't want to be recorded. I think I recorded four hours of footage before I decided to start over—and recorded another two hours of footage. Editing all this stupidly-long footage took a long time as well. But it is done.

Today, I'll talk about not only about the show, how it ended up where it ended up, and where I hope it'll be headed in the future, but also about autism and aphantasia.

I recently learned that I am on the spectrum. I am autistic. It was quite the relief, shock, and revelation. At 31, I am relearning who I am and discovering what it means to be neurodivergent. I'll share the story of getting a diagnosis as an adult woman in another video, so today will all be about the discovery.

The third topic of the day is aphantasia which I discovered while researching autism (obsessively...). Aphantasia is an inability to voluntarily visualize. The mind is a fascinating place. I'll share what aphantasia is, how you figure out if you are aphantastic, and what it means for me.

Mentioned in this episode:

Embrace Autism | The ultimate autism resource
Research & experience-based autism content for personal elucidation & empowerment. By autistic people, for autistic people.
r/Aphantasia: /r/Aphantasia is a place to discuss your discovery stories, issues or questions, and any news coverage or research about Aphantasia …
Aphantasia Network · Image Free Thinking
A place to discover and learn about aphantasia
Kate Hildenbrand

Kate Hildenbrand

Kate Hildenbrand is the writer behind the essays here, author of fiction novels, the creator of the Kate Hildenbrand podcast, and a student of marine ecology. At least, that's her on the surface.